So excited!!!

My momma is coming down tomorrow and we are so excited to see her. Then her the kids and me are going to Orlando nest weekend to the Holy Land Experience. I am so looking forward to that. I will have to take Chris out of school but the school year is almost over. The kids are so excited and have counted down the days until she gets here.


I started seeing my Therapist this past week. And I have to say she is AWESOME!!!! If you are wondering why I am seeing one.. Well no it isnt because I have went crazy. Just like I told Neil just because a person sees a therapist doesnt mean you are nuts. I see her because my doctor wanted me to for my anxiety. I had a bad first of the year last year with the miscarriage. And I think that is what led up to the anxiety or triggered it. When I had the first miscarriage I went into a depression. I locked myself up in our room and that was were I stayed. I hated going out because of course being on a military base there were pregnant women everywhere. And I am not exaggerating. I would get so down that I just wanted to go home. I couldnt understand why it was so easy for some to get pregnant and so hard for me. I had never felt so alone in my life. Neil wasnt there for me because he couldnt understand what I was going through. And my family was back in the states. I had no friends in Germany at that time because we hadnt been there that long. And then I felt the same way this time. The only thing that helped was Chris and Haylee. But even then there were nights I would just sit and cry. I couldnt understand why yet again this was happening. And yes my family was there for me but there is only so much they can do when they are in another state. I remember watching the episode of Army Wives where one of the characters goes through a miscarriage and how her friends came together and supported her and was there for her. That is the way it is suppose to be. But I have never had close friends since Neil joined. Some I thought were but later found out they werent. I do feel I have found a friend who I can count on. And I will be glad when she gets back here. We are planning a trip to Disney with her and her family later this year. So that gives me something to look forward to. Because you all know how much I LOVE Disney....lol But anyways I think that is what brought on the anxiety or triggered it. 


Sorry it just seems since all this has happened I have figured out who some people really are. And if I wasnt so nice and polite I might would tell them a ear full......lol I have learned it isnt good to keep everything inside. But if I let some things out some people wouldnt like it. Oh wow there I go again going to get off my soapbox now.....LOL


Ok so lets see...... Chris goes back to school tomorrow he has been on Spring Break this week. I will miss not having him at home. And I am sure Hay will be lonely again. He is so smart and silly. He can say some of the funniest things. He is learning to write and read and stuff. He doesnt want to grip a pencil. I am not sure if he is afraid he will break it or what. He has no problems holding on to other things. He is getting better at it though. 


Hay is doing great. She talks up a storm and half the time I am not sure what she is talking about. She is potty training and doing good. I am not rushing her just letting her go at her own pace. I have her stocked up on pullups for awhile so it is nice not having to buy them at all. I am hoping to have her fully trained by the time I would need to buy some. I dont buy into the whole having them trained by 2. Not every child is the same so when one might be trained by that age another might not. I learned that with Chris. 


Neil, is the same ole same ole working his butt off. He will be glad when the guys that just got back come back to work. They are kinda short handed and it makes it hard on him. Plus he is in a new shop so he is trying to learn the job. But he is getting there and it doesnt take him long to learn. 


As for me I am going this week to get registered for school. I have put it off long enough but not because I wanted to. I am not sure when the next semester starts. I am gonna take night classes so Neil can keep the kids. I want to get my nursing degree before Neil retires....lol Hard to believe he only has 8 more years. I think he said the other day it was under 3000 days. I still do my coupons and have my stockpile built up. I am up to saving over 100.00 on my grocery bill now. 


I think that about covers it. Just really looking forward to seeing my Momma. I havent seen her in almost a year. I have been sick she has been sick so it has been hard for us to get to see each other. But I will go for now. I will try and update this thing more. I just cant never remember to get on here unless I get something on my mind. 


So until next time....... Much love to you all.....XOXOXOXOXOXO