Got to thinking......

about alot of things actually. 


When you are a military wife it is hard to make friends. You move all over the place and if you dont work it is even harder. Being a military wife you need people to step in for your family. Alot of the times we get stationed where family cant come visit may it be because of financial reasons or maybe because they have to fly. So we need to surround ourselves with people who we can lean on and trust. I try to be that way with people I meet. I feel I am there for them in anyway they need me and in return I dont get the same treatment. This past year has showed me that. But through it I have met some awesome ladies who I feel I can count on. They are my coupon ladies...lol It has made me more cautious though when making friends but I will not change who I am. I like to help people in any way I can. I have always been that way. I often wonder if it is because I dont drink and party and all that. I was never one that got into that. I dont know I guess I am better off without those people in my life. 


I took Chris yesterday and got him registered for school. He will be our big Kindergardner in the fall. That will only leave Hay and me here. He is really looking forward to going. We were going to homeschool them but Chris really wants to go to school. So we are going to see how this year goes. How he does and if he will truly like it. I will miss him something awful but it will be good on him. Then I will have 2 years with Hay before she starts. Which I had 2 years with Chris before I had her.  That is why I am glad we had them 2 years apart. I can also start on my schooling which I cant wait to start. Get that out of the way and when Neil retires I can work fulltime. 


Our trip to Disney had to be postponed. Neil isnt able to take leave since there is so much going on. That is ok the weather is not all that warm right now. And I would rather wait until a little later anyways. We are going to Downtown Disney with some friends of ours later this month. That is how we get our Disney fix until we can actually go. 


My heart is breaking for some friends of mine. There were 2 friends from back home that lost their babies. One was 30 some weeks along and the other was 20. Suffering a loss like that is so devastating. I have lost 3 babies but they were early on which I thought was hard. But I could not even imagine what these ladies have went through. To carry your baby for that long feeling it move and hearing its heart beating and then to find out the baby didnt make it. It is something that I will never understand. How women who dont deserve or want to be pregnant and can get pregnant at the drop of a hat and have no problems. Then the ones that desire a child so bad cant have kids or they lose them. Losing a child is not something I would wish on my worst enemy. 


These were just some things that have been on my mind. Much Love to you All.......XOXOXOXOXOXOXO